I have a few things I want to apologize for on here . . . .
the first is the lack of posts aside from my weekly updates . . .
honestly ever since I got my BFP I have been at a loss of what to say on here. The hardest post I ever had to write was the one saying that I was pregnant. I wrote it three times and still wasn't satisfied. I feel enormous amounts of guilt when it comes to that. We were IFers that got pregnant but were fortunate enough to do so without ART or previous losses. Though IF is hard on everyone, I feel like I got out so easy compared to so many others.
I just don't know what to say. I am terrified to offend those bloggers I care so much about, so I just don't put anything on here. Even when I wasn't pregnant I wasn't very good about posting non IF stuff, I'm not super creative or funny, so I just stuck with keeping this blog to a strict IF content. Now all I can do is update pregnancy stuff, which no one really needs to hear about more than once a week.
So please forgive me, I am going to try to expand my content a bit more. Most of my favorite blogs are ones that have IFers share other things about themselves, so I am going to work on that.
the next thing I want to kind of apologize for is that I am very honest in my weekly pregnancy posts . . . .
Many of you who have SAIF, put in their updates "I will not complain" or :Nothing is bad, I love every minute of pregnancy I wouldn't trade it". Which is great and to each his own, but I personally am going to put it out there. Every morning sickness, swelling, lack of sleep. I am not doing this in a complainy way (well not most of the time), I am doing it, because I don't scrapbook or journal . . . this is my place to document our journey.
I 100% believe that this pregnancy is a blessing, and a gift. I am beyond grateful and happy, however, I also think marriage is a gift and let's be honest I have said a bad thing or two about my husband over the last 4 years. So please do not take my notes as being ungrateful or snide now that I am lucky enough to be pregnant. I wouldn't trade vomiting for 23 weeks straight for not getting my take home baby. . . EVER, but I still want to document it for myself.
Thanks to those who have stuck around and I hope I articulated myself correctly on here.
I am thinking of watch of you and can't wait to see how each of your journey's end!