Thursday, June 30, 2011

My Apologies

I have a few things I want to apologize for on here . . . .

the first is the lack of posts aside from my weekly updates . . .

honestly ever since I got my BFP I have been at a loss of what to say on here.  The hardest post I ever had to write was the one saying that I was pregnant.  I wrote it three times and still wasn't satisfied.  I feel enormous amounts of guilt when it comes to that.  We were IFers that got pregnant but were fortunate enough to do so without ART or previous losses.  Though IF is hard on everyone, I feel like I got out so easy compared to so many others.

I just don't know what to say.  I am terrified to offend those bloggers I care so much about, so I just don't put anything on here.  Even when I wasn't pregnant I wasn't very good about posting non IF stuff, I'm not super creative or funny, so I just stuck with keeping this blog to a strict IF content.  Now all I can do is update pregnancy stuff, which no one really needs to hear about more than once a week.

So please forgive me, I am going to try to expand my content a bit more.  Most of my favorite blogs are ones that have IFers share other things about themselves, so I am going to work on that. 


the next thing I want to kind of apologize for is that I am very honest in my weekly pregnancy posts . . . .

Many of you who have SAIF, put in their updates "I will not complain" or :Nothing is bad, I love every minute of pregnancy I wouldn't trade it".  Which is great and to each his own, but I personally am going to put it out there.  Every morning sickness, swelling, lack of sleep.  I am not doing this in a complainy way (well not most of the time), I am doing it, because I don't scrapbook or journal . . . this is my place to document our journey. 

I 100% believe that this pregnancy is a blessing, and a gift.  I am beyond grateful and happy, however, I also think marriage is a gift and let's be honest I have said a bad thing or two about my husband over the last 4 years.  So please do not take my notes as being ungrateful or snide now that I am lucky enough to be pregnant.  I wouldn't trade vomiting for 23 weeks straight for not getting my take home baby. . . EVER, but I still want to document it for myself.


Thanks to those who have stuck around and I hope I articulated myself correctly on here.

I am thinking of watch of you and can't wait to see how each of your journey's end!

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

27 Weeks

How Far Along? 27 weeks  Hello third trimester!!

Maternity Clothes? Yep!  They are really comfortable!

Weight Gain? I gained 1 pound this week.  I miscalculated two weeks ago, so with this 1 pound gain, we are at 11.5 total  If I can hit 30 weeks at 15 or under, I will be really happy.  I think that will give me a shot at only gaining the recommended 25 pounds from my Doctor!

Stretch Marks? Not yet!

Sleep? Not too bad, I miss the uninterrupted sleep and sleeping comfortably on my back, but it is what it is!  I am going camping this coming weekend, so I am really interested to see how that goes???

Best Moment of the Week?  Hmmm there are a few great ones . . .
1. Getting the changing table put together (all by myself)
2. Getting the fitted sheet, the crib skirt, and the changing pad cover in the mail (I love http://www.carouseldesigns.com/)
3. Having Avery really put on a show last night.

Weirdest Comment:  Nothing weird.

Movement? I am really getting to the point now where you can just look at my stomach and know how/where she is laying!!  It's so fun to guess what is what.

Gender? Girl, Avery!

What I miss? Nothing, doing pretty good this week.

Symptoms: My skin is bad again this week.  Sleeping has been kind of tough.  My back is starting to ache.  And my feet are swelling.  I am getting angry quickly, and I can't blame lack of sleep, I truly think this is hormones, it doesn't take much to get me a little POed.  All pretty common and totally bearable.
What I'm looking forward to? Getting the crib up and the sheets and crib skirt up too!!!

Weekly Wisdom:  I don't really have any wisdom this week.  I am ready for the weekend, mostly so I can nap.

Milestones: Third trimester, holy crap the second goes soooo much faster than the first . . . .probably because I wasn't as terrified the second trimester, or as sick!

Emotions: Getting excited.  It is cute to see Ray get protective of me, he has never really done that before, which is fine by me, but now he is really outspoken about it.

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Please excuse the scowl, I am trying to figure out how to work my new phone's camera!

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

26 Weeks

How Far Along? 26 weeks

Maternity Clothes? I am finally having to repeat my clothes, I am so fortunate to have gotten so many from friends!!!

Weight Gain? I gained nothing this week!!!  I was starting to get worried that I was becoming a runaway train on the weight front.  From week 20 to 25 I gained 7.5 pounds.  So with 0 for the week we are at a total of 11.5 pounds so far this pregnancy!

Stretch Marks? Not yet!

Sleep? I am doing better, but what I wouldn't give for 1 really good night of uninterrupted sleep!!!

Best Moment of the Week?  Father's Day with Ray!  And going through the clothes people have given/lent us.  I love looking at baby clothes!

Weirdest Comment:  Nothing weird.

Movement? She is going bonkers in there.  I am feeling it about every two hours.  It is just such a weird feeling sometimes!!!

Gender? Girl, Avery!

What I miss? Nothing, doing pretty good this week.

Symptoms: My skin is bad again this week.  Sleeping has been tough.  My back is starting to ache.  And my feet are swelling.  All pretty common and totally bearable (except maybe the sleep).

What I'm looking forward to? Decorating the nursery and finalizing the registry with Sarah!

Weekly Wisdom:  I don't really have any wisdom this week.  I am ready for the weekend, mostly so I can nap.

Milestones: Having less than 100 days til we have Avery!

Emotions: Doing pretty good.  I am certainly less patient, some of that is the hormones, some of it is the lack of sleep.

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Sunday, June 19, 2011

Big Day

Today was a busy day.  We finished the touch ups in the nursery.  And now we are ready to move the furniture in there (and build it).




We got a ton of baby stuff, most of it from my friend Kristen and some from a friend at work.  We are sooooo grateful!!!!!!

We did most of the registry.  We registered at two places, as Target doesn't have everything we want/need.  Next weekend I am going with my friend Sarah to get her advice on tweaking the registry.  It will be nice to have it all wrapped up!!!

And last but not least . . . .we celebrated Father's Day.  Happy Father's Day to my Dad, who is the best Dad ever.  He always worked really hard to make me feel special and push me to be better.  Love you Dad!  He's so goofy.


And also happy Father-to-Be Day to my hubby.  He is going to be a great Dad and I just know that someday Avery will appreciate him and love him as much I do with my Dad.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

25 Weeks

How Far Along? 25 weeks

Maternity Clothes? I tried wearing a regular shirt today and it was just too short for the belly I am growing.  It fit fine everywhere else, but I think I am pretty much maternity from here on out!

Weight Gain? I gained 1.5 pounds last week.  Now I am 11.5 pounds total gained.  I am hoping that this 1.5 to 2.0 pounds per week stretch ends soon  I am not going to be able to stick to my 25 pound goal.

Stretch Marks? Not yet!

Sleep? I am doing better, but what I wouldn't give for 1 really good night of uninterrupted sleep!!!

Best Moment of the Week?  Every night Avery puts on a show and kicks and rolls and moves like crazy.  I really look forward to that!  Ray can't get over how much she moves in there!!!

Weirdest Comment:  Nothing weird.

Movement? She is moving more and more throughout the day.  I guess not more, but I think she is just getting so big that I can actually feel it more.

Gender? Girl, Avery!

What I miss? Nothing, doing pretty good this week.

Symptoms: My skin is bad again this week and I think it will stay that way, since we are going into the heat and humidity.
Sleeping has been tough.
My back is starting to ache.

What I'm looking forward to? Now that the paint is up, I am ready for the furniture to get put together and for things to start looking like a nursery.

Weekly Wisdom:  Put a pillow behind you as support.  I LOVE sleeping on my back and I miss it sooo much, I think it is part of why I don't sleep as well.  But if you put a pillow behind/under your back, so that you aren't laying flat on your back, it helps!!!!!

Milestones: We are going for a very simple nursery and all of the little girl bedding has patterns and polka dots and butterflies and flowers, which are all great, but don't go with our nursery.  I am soooo happy to have found a solid color crib bedding set and the color swatch came yesterday and it matches perfectly!!!!  I am really happy about that!!!

Emotions: I am sooo happy that the pregnancy problems seem to be behind me!!!!  But I am also a little feisty and impatient right now.  I am fine unless you tick me off.

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Thursday, June 9, 2011

Why Did I Do That

So please don't judge me, but I watch The S.ecret Life of the A.merican T.eenager.  It is sooooo bad it is good.  The acting, the writing, the story lines are all so ridiculous that they literally make me laugh out loud.

I knew I should have skipped last week's show, because the previews were pretty obvious in what was going to happen. 

But Adrianne, who is 36 or more weeks pregnant "feels weird" and goes to the hospital.  She thinks that the baby isn't moving because it is resting getting ready for delivery.  Again, why didn't I stop there?

I am stupid, and kept watching.  Well the obvious happened, the baby had passed.  They didn't go into a ton of details or what happened, but they did show everyone mourning.  I sobbed like a little girl.

I know nothing in pregnancy is 100%, but I was starting to feel somewhat secure that things were going to be good.  Now all I can say is thank God I have an active baby in there, every time she kicks I feel better.  I know I (probably) won't complain about her movements for the rest of this pregnancy, now that I view it as a sign that she is ok in there.

Side Note- I just had to document a weird dream I had . . . . I have had many during this pregnancy, but nothing like this.

I went through Labor and Delivery and everything went smoothly, until the birth and out came a kitten.  The other weird thing about this kitten was that it looked like a combination of my two homosexual cats . . . .Ray said it sounded like I was the surrogate for my cats.

Anyways, I just remember telling the Doctor that I wanted a baby and not a kitten.

Truly weird.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

24 Weeks

How Far Along? 24 weeks, 6 months!!!! 

Maternity Clothes? All maternity or flowy tops.  Summer makes it easier to not have to wear maternity tops!  I have a few skirts that I am pretty sure will make it through this pregnancy, even though they are not maternity!

Weight Gain? I gained 1 pound last week.  Now I am right at 10 pounds gained total.  I was hoping that I would make it to 25 weeks at 10 pounds, but I don't think that will happen!
Stretch Marks? Not yet!

Sleep? I am not sleeping well through the night.  I just can't get comfortable.  And I am starting to have bad dreams.

Best Moment of the Week? Getting the room ready, we finally got it all cleaned out and now we are ready to paint (well Ray is).  The painting should be done by this weekend and then we can start putting together all of the furniture!
Also, I liked talking with Stacie about her and Candace's plans for my shower.  They are such great friends and crazy on top of it!!!
Weirdest Comment: Not weird, but worth recording . . . my friend's mom saw me for the first time since I have been pregnant and she made me turn around and said, you haven't gained weight anywhere but right in your bump!!!  Love her forever!
Movement? She moves at about  8, noon, and at night when I lay down.  She also reminds me when I need to snack by going crazy and after Gatorade!  What I am feeling has changed more from punches and kicks to more rolling and changing positions.  It is a weird feeling.  Also, she is getting lower, I don't know what part of her, but something is putting crazy pressure down there.  I thought it would be awhile before I felt that!!

Gender? Girl, Avery!

What I miss? Nothing, doing pretty good this week.

Symptoms: My skin is bad again this week and I think it will stay that way, since we are going into the heat and humidity.
Sleeping has been tough.
And I have hip pain, but otherwise, we are doing pretty good.
What I'm looking forward to? Paining, and setting things up.  I can't wait to see this room become what I have pictured in my head for awhile now!
Weekly Wisdom:  Apparently you can gently reposition your baby.  I was having tons of pressure and was told to gently shift the baby around, and crazy enough it did help.

Milestones: Moving forward (slowly) on the nursery!

Emotions: I am sooo happy that the pregnancy problems seem to be behind me!!!!  But I am also a little feisty and impatient right now.  I am fine unless you tick me off.

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Monday, June 6, 2011

45 Things I Want to do in the Next 2 Years

I came across a few bloggers who have a list of 101 things to do in the next 1001 days.  I liked the idea, but holy crap, I couldn't even come up with 50 things, so I made my own list.


Anyways, I love the idea . . . . there are always things you are meaning to do, but never get to.  This is a great way of making sure that you do them.  I am really looking forward to starting on this list!!!!


I will do a blog on each one as I cross it off my list!!


1)      Go to Minnesota to visit family
2)      Watch 26 movies, I have never seen starting with each letter of the alphabet
3)      Read 3 classic novels
4)      Surprise someone
5)      Spend the entire day in a park
6)      Write a love letter
7)      Document a “day in the life” in photographs
8)      Write myself a mail via http://www.futureme.org
9)      Go on a date
10)  Write a hand written letter to 5 people
11)  Watch a sunrise and a sunset with someone
12)  Go on an unplanned vacation
13)  Unplug for the weekend, no phone, TV, computer
14)  Do 10 random acts of kindness
15)  Volunteer at a soup kitchen
16)  Send out Christmas cards
17)  Kiss in the rain
18)  Write my will and get it notarized
19)  Make a homemade Valentine and give it to Ray
20)  Go to 3 concerts
21)  Go camping with Avery
22)  Spend an entire day in bed
23)  Host a party
24)  Build a snowman
25)  Eat sushi and drink sake
26)  Eat a bag of Harry Potter Bertie Bott’s jellybeans
27)  Bury a Time Capsule
28)  Buy a copy of my favorite book and give it to a friend to read
29)  Go to the Kentucky Derby and wear a fabulous hat
30)  Eat at one of the places from Diners, Drive-ins and Dives
31)  Go to a Colts Game
32)  Back up all the important things on my laptop
33)  Not buy anything for an entire week
34)  Learn 25 new words
35)  Not say NO to anything for an entire week. 
36)  Spend an entire day in the pool or by it.
37)  Go to Holiday World
38)  Spend the day with my Dad
39)  Take Avery to swim classes
40)  Go to 10 Louisville Originals (ones I haven't all ready been to)
41)  Go wine tasting to a new place
42)  Take a day off of work when it is nice out and just go for a walk, read and relax
43)  Create a scrapbook of Avery’s first year
44)  Do something really nice for Ray
45)  Set up a family weekend in Nashville