There are TONS of benefits to getting pregnant on our own . . . . .
Here is the drawback . . . . .
I have to wait until 18 weeks to see an ultrasound of my baby
And I have to wait until 12 weeks to hear the heartbeat
Again, I know how fortunate I am, truly I do.
But as we have all ready established, I am crazy impatient.
And one other wonderful gift IF bestows upon you is complete lack of naivety.
I know the possible outcomes, I have heard the heart wrenching stories surrounding miscarriages. And I still check the toilet paper every time I wipe. Because I am terrified. I am so scared that I will have to endure that loss.
One thing I always counted myself lucky on during the IF journey is not having to have experienced the heartbreak of miscarriage. Those of you who have are incredibly strong people to continue to try again. I truly don't know if I am that strong.
So I want to take a moment to send hugs out to everyone who has ever gone through a miscarriage (or a failed adoption). You women are so strong and I admire you sooo much.