So I know that my title is a bit of an oxy-moron, however it is true.
Last week I was really sick, really tired (from being really sick), really busy (so I couldn't take a day off to rest up), and PMSing. Sounds like a good combo, right?
Well it was. And all of those things contributed to my minor breakdown.
Oddly, IF played no role. I tested at dpo10, which I never do that early, but I wanted to be sure so I didn't feel so guilty about drugging myself up. So with an insanely dark control line, I went on my merry way consuming every decongestant I could get my hands on. The BFN actually was a bit of a relief at the time (again no guilt about the drugs) and no worries about that for the rest of the week.
Back to the breakdown. I was REALLY frustrated about a new person we hired. I shouldn't get into it, but I just felt undervalued and felt that way for the other employees as well.
I know it is stupid, but I don't cry when I am sad or my feelings are hurt (only when I hear sappy songs or that damn Foldgers commercial gets me going), but I cry when I am angry. And then I get more angry that I am crying. So that is about how Friday ended. I did manage to drop a vacation request for "a mental health day" on Monday on my bosses' desk before I left though.
I took the weekend to cool down and try to get some perspective.
I can gladly say that I start this four day work week with a much more clear head (literally and metaphorically speaking) thanks to the mental health day and the Netti Pot!!!
I hope everyone has a great week.