I am having a hard time writing this post, not because I am not excited, but because I know that as much as we root for each other sometimes hearing people get their BFP is hard.
I am super excited to say that I have finally gotten mine!!!!!!!!
A month ago I was sure our IF journey would result in adoption (and we may still chose to adopt), but it is amazing how one month can change things.
I tested and got a BFN on cd26, so I am not sure why I decided to test again on Wednesday (the day I was supposed to get my period). My boobs were a little sore (nothing really out of the ordinary) but I had been really gassy and burpy . . .so I POAS and HOLY SHIT it came up positive! The second line wasn't super dark, but it was clearly there.
Unfortunately, I was SO shocked by this that I didn't have a clever way of telling my husband . . .I just screamed "come in here, I think I am losing my mind".
So when I had no idea what to do next . . . I had spent 19 months trying to get pregnant, I had completely blanked on what to do once you thought you were.
So I called my friend and asked her. I then sent Ray out to the store to get the good, non Internet bought EPT that clearly says pregnant or not pregnant. I peed on one when he got back and "Pregnant". I did it again the next morning, same answer. It didn't matter that I had three positives, I still didn't believe it. So I went to get the blood test that afternoon and I got the call today. Pregnant!!!!!
Don't get me wrong I am SOOOO happy, but I feel like I am in shock. I have spent so much time trying not to let myself get hurt that I am struggling with celebrating this.
It is slowly sinking in and I loved it when Ray called me his baby's momma last night.
Also I cried when he said good night to me and then good night to poppyseed (since that is the size of the baby).
I am so thrilled, but just a little unsure and anxious. And I still obsessively check for blood every time I go to the bathroom (which is a lot recently).
I can't wait to post on what happens throughout this pregnancy! I will still be following each of you and rooting for each of you, but I understand if you need to stop following this blog or don't comment anymore.
Have a great weekend!